And so it begins- Month one!

I want to write, I need to write... I have NO TIME!

Nick built me an awesome computer within an hour (minus time buying parts) and I've only been able to use it a couple of times. Finding time to do anything is so rare these days.

Where should I start?

How about I answer the question that everyone keeps asking. "So how are you doing?"

I'm doing well thanks! Ha! Ok joking aside. I'm doing fine. I'm hanging in there. Some days are better than others. Some days I look at Jacen and want to eat him up, other days I wish he were never born? Whoa... can I say that? I'm being honest right? (Jacen baby, if you ever read this, you may get your feelings hurt, and then you'll have a kid of your own and totally understand!) Jacen, thus far has been easier than Jessa. We have only had about one day where I seriously could not get him to stop crying. That was the day I said... "we are NOT doing this again." I started taking note on anything I could. I stopped all dairy, pretty much cut all caffeine out... I mean once in awhile I just gotta have a little something to keep me going. Other than that I've changed the way I burp him, I changed our latch, I changed the length of time I'm feeding him and basically I've done everything I've ever read to calm a fussy baby. Been there done that. Between Nick and I we spend about 80% of our day on the exercise ball just bouncing up and down. (Nick is actually on it while i'm able to type this.) Jacen LOVES movement, darkness, quietness and being hot. What can I say other than the kid is pretty high maintenance!

My bonding with his has been extremely different than with Jessa. I'm not sure if it's because he is a boy, if because we found out his sex before delivery, if delivery went too fast, or if it's just the second kid and I don't have time to count his fingers and toes and dote over him all day long. Whatever is it I'm finding that I tell Jessa I love her at least 100,000 times a day, but I think I've only said it maybe three times to Jacen. However, at this stage, I "like" Jacen a whole lot better than I "liked" Jessa.

Maybe now is a good time to write a disclaimer. I'm not comparing my children... Ok yes I am! I think that's ok though. I"m not doing it meanly I'm just stating what I"m feeling and to be honest once we get through the first year of Jacen's life, I know I will love my kids differently but equally... that's NOT saying I don't love them both right now. But I truly feel it takes time to get to know your child. I think I'm more so comparing experiences.

I can say, I've only cried a hand full of times thus far. What a huge accomplishment for me. With Jessa it was multiple times a day, all day long on certain days. I like to think since i've been through this once before and know deep down it gets better than anything I could have imagined with Jessa was so young... i'm just feeling more positive about the situation than I did the first time around.

So I hope that answers the "how are you doing?" It's honest, it's real and I'm doing just fine. I will survive this stage, believe it or not! (do I want to do it ever again... ya, probably not!)

So let's talk facts:

Jacen 1month old:
* Still wearing newborn clothes but too long for newborn sleepers
* Just made the switch over to size one diapers
* Not sure one weight gain but you can tell he is growing... and fast!
* He's got the longest feet I've ever seen on a newborn
* He's basically Nick's twin
* His eyes are blue/grey... they are beautiful accompanied by the prettiest longest eyelashes every. Longer than Jessa's!
* He's slept a 7 hour stretch... just once. Mostly it's 3 hours.
* He's the sleepiest eater ever and it's extremely annoying!
* His long stretches of sleep are ONLY if it's dark outside.
* My magic calming tool is "shhhhhing" in his right ear while holding his head in my left hand and his butt in my right... it works ALMOST every time
* He's not a fan of pacifiers but will nurse all day long if I let him
* Yes I'm nursing again...
* I think that's about it. It's lovely to see blue in the house, such a change, yet so similar from the first time around.

With that said... I'm more than ready for month two to come and go ;)

Jessa 21months old:
* Using two word sentences
* My absolutely favorite word she says is "oopsies" O my gosh, it's by far the cutest thing I've ever seen in my life!
* She is wearing 2T shirts but can still fit in some size 12mo. pants. Her torso is super long
* We have started introducing the potty and although she watches me pee about a trillion times a day, and watches Nick pee maybe once a month she still walks to the toilet, lifts up her shirt, stands in front of it... with her pants on and then flushes... I think we have some work to do!!!
* She has taken to having a brother better than I ever could have expected. She adores him, kisses him, shh's him, burps him. Basically she plays mom #2 to him.
* For some reason his crying doesn't bother her. I'm not sure why, but there has only been once she has gotten really flustered over him crying. Which is really great!
* She has learned that since Jacen cries and gets attention, maybe she can too! This has been hard.
* "Sleep sack" is her best friend and it's a bit out of control. I don't know how to handle this but she carries it around the house all day long, it stinks worse than anything I've ever smelled despite being washed AT LEAST weekly and she cries whines and does numerous other annoying things when it gets taken away or is lost around the house somewhere.
* Recently she is attempting to put clothes on herself. She loves going through her draws and trying to put all the clothes on. Soon I suppose she will be able to dress herself!
* Basically she's awesome. She's still one of the best behaved kids I know. Yes, she has her days. Just yesterday I told Nick "she is annoying the crap out of me today!" BAH! She was into everything she wasn't suppose to be in, but at the end of the day she is so sweet and loving there is no way I just can't smile when I look at her. :)

With that all said... I should give Nick a break from a crying child going on hour 4 :)

June 24th

After my last doctors appointment and finding out I had dilated to a 3 in a week I got pretty excited and wondered if maybe Jacen would share the same birthday with Zac. The only problem with this "plan" is that my Doula's son's birthday is also the 24th and she had told me she missed his 1st birthday, and if for some reason I did deliver on the 24th, she would miss his 2nd too.

Here we are June 23rd. I feel different. Labor is such a waiting game, one min. i'm sure this is it, the next I feel like I could go all the way to my due date. It definitively a roller coaster ride. I can feel my stomach tightening, I have been excessively hot all day.. I suppose though only time will tell if it's the real deal or not.

I've had a lot of people questioning me "are you ready?" I suppose the reason for this post tonight is to remember how I was feeling before I welcome my 2nd child into the world.

... I can't believe I'm going to be a mom of 2...

This pregnancy has definitely flown by. It really does seem like yesterday it was the morning of Jessa's birthday party and I got my first dark positive line on my pregnancy text. I was overjoyed, scared, and in disbelief I had actually gotten pregnant in Cancun like we had planned for... before we even had Jessa. I was pretty sure it would take a few months of trying to get pregnant, which would put the kids at exactly 2 years apart, however on the 1st "try" it happened.

20 months. That's the space in between my children. Am I ready? No not at all. I don't feel mentally prepared for what's about to happen. Would I have been more prepared if we would have waiting a few months? I can't answer that, I can only answer that I"m scared out of my mind on how to take care of two "babies."

Jessa is about the coolest kid I know. She is overly helpful, super sweet, very nurturing, and overall an almost perfect child. I couldn't have asked for a better behaved kid! With that said, she has her moments. She gets her hand, mouth and behind slapped at times, she gets her full name called out in an angry tone and has also recently been sent to her "time out crib" (AKA the only space she can cool down without running away from.) I'm feeling extra guilty that her days as an only child are so limited. I feel like I took her 2nd year of life away from her from being pregnant during it, which limited my abilities to do things, and then these next couple of months leading up to her 2nd birthday will be spent splitting my time between her and a newborn. I wish I had more time with her, and her alone...

I'm nervous my fuse with Jessa is going to be shortened due to lack of sleep, and just the over all frustrations that come along with having a new born. I don't want this to happen. I'm scared she is going to get put on the back burner during times where I am nursing, and Barney is going to become a better friend to her than her own mom.

Like I said, I'm just feeling mentally unprepared for this...

How do you even prepare for this?

I keep telling myself I have time, I have time. Reality is my hospital bags are packed, my little boy's clothes are washed and folded in his dresser, his bed has clean sheets on it and the car seat is 1/2 way installed in the car... we are "ready" for him to come home and complete our family. Just maybe not tonight???

I feel like I just need more time, just a few more days, a few more mins, a few more seconds alone with my daughter, and then I'll be ready. Ready to hold a sweet baby boy that me and my one and only true love made together. I'll be ready to look at his face, kiss his sweet cheeks, count his fingers and toes and go crazy at how beautiful his little features are. Maybe in a few days I'll be ready to forget all the craziness that having a newborn in the house holds, the late nights, the crying, the inconsistent schedule, maybe in a few days I'll forget that happens and focus my happiness that God has blessed me with two babies, a beautiful girl and a handsome boy. Maybe in a few days my life will feel complete... For right now, I'm not sure that I'm ready... Or am I?

If you are reading this, please say a little prayer for me. I'm scared, not because I don't think I can do it, because I know I can. I'm scared that I"m not going to be good at it. I'm scared I"m going to hate every moment of the next year. I'm scared that I'm going to dread waking up in the morning for fear of what the day will hold. I want it to be easy, I want to fall so in love with my son the way I have with my daughter... please pray that happens.

For now, I'll sit and wait. Sit and pray. Prepare my mind for two babies because let's face it... It will happen sooner than later. I will meet my baby boy soon.

Flooded

I'm overwhelmed with thoughts, which is probably the case for my lack of keeping up memories in writing. I'm feeling extra guilty these days that I'm not writing down the little things Jessa does that make me the happiest mother on earth. For example: Jessa is saying "Thank you" which sound more like "Dank you." BAH! It melts my heart. Every time I give her a snack, or her cup, or unbuckle her baby stroller, or do anything she is asking me too it's "Thank you." It makes me feel like I won the lottery of kids. I really am so lucky! She may... dare I say it? Be the perfect kid! I know, I know, she has her moments where I seriously think i'm going to pick her up and throw her across the room if one more whine or cry comes out of her mouth for not getting her way, but seriously she's darn near perfect!

We just switched her over to her new room. I have taken so much pride in that room. I absolutely love the way it has turned out! Every time I walk in there I give myself a pat on the back... it's just really a happy room! Jessa seems to be adjusting great. We thought we could get away with not having a changing table in there, but it turns out we REALLY need one. That's about the only thing that I have overlooked. Other than that, Jacen's room is... not coming along at all! I've completely stalled after I got Jessa's room finished. I have a bunch of ideas, it's just putting them into play that makes it hard. I have scrapbook paper and letters all bought and ready to go for his name, and I have an idea of a few more pictures I want to hang in there, but it's having the energy to do it that I"m really lacking at!

I can't believe Jacen's arrival is less than 2 months ago. I having an extremely hard time wrapping my head around the idea of having two kids. My energy level is so low these days, that the thought of having to love another human being and take care of their EVERY need is repulsing to me. I'm extremely uncomfortable being pregnant, more so in the last week or two but having him inside me is comforting knowing that he's safe and not needing a whole lot of care right now. I don't know... basically I'm just panicking and it's not a good thing. I would say I'm in need of some big prayer right now, just to calm my mind and prepare it for another little person in the house.

I was excited to start writing in hopes I could get a few Jessa memories down, but instead my body is telling me it's time to stop siting in the computer chair. I will try again when my head is a little clearer.

It's been over a month.

It's been over a month since I've last written. At least once a day I think about something I should write down, but by the time bed time rolls around, call me crazy but all I want to do is go to bed! I have so many things I want to talk about/brag about having to do with Jessa. I don't want these now memories to ever escape me, and I'm feeling them fade fast. I'm scared really.

This pregnancy has had me super emotional from day 1. My pregnancy with Jessa was a shock, so I feel like I spent the 9 months preparing for a child, mentally and physically the way a person should... but maybe with a little more grief than one might lead on because I wasn't quite ready to give up my childhood myself. Well I did it, I got through it look at me now! A mama of a beautiful 17 month old child that I couldn't possibly imagine loving anything as much. I get to do it all over again, I'm more than thrilled about that! I'm even more thrilled that I get to experience having a son! A SON! I realize I too will get through this just like I have done with Jessa, but "what if" I don't love him as much as I love Jessa.... YES I just took it there! The "what if" game can really get you caught up in a whole bunch of stuff you don't want to get caught up in, but lets be honest here, doesn't even parent think of this stuff?

How in the world do you nurse a child, when your other child is running around the house?
How do you separate yourself and make sure you give equal amount of attention to each kid?
How do you make sure your older child feels loved when you haven't slept in over a week?
How do you handle older child if/when they act up because they need attention?
Am I hurting my older child by bringing a new love into my life?
Am I hurting my younger child because I'll never spend as much alone time with child 2 as I did with child 1?
Will I treat them differently?
How do you play fairsies?
And again... Will I love child 2 as much as child 1??

Sometimes I exhaust myself with my thinking. My only peace comes in knowing that God is really only to give me as much as I can handle. From the moment Nick and I made the decision to stop all birth control, we laid the possibility of child #2 in God's hands. Even after thinking over these lists of questions at least once a day, I still feel at peace knowing God has planted this little being inside of me and given me the job to raise him to the best of my ability. Even if that means having days where I sit on the couch and let both kids watch t.v. all. day. long. :)

Moving on:

JESSA @ 17 months!
Weight: I'll check these tomorrow, I have no guesses!
Height:
Clothes/Diaper size: 12mo. Pants; 18-24mo. Shirts; Size 4 Diapers
# of teeth:8 front, bottom right molar, and other 3 showing but not fully in.
Personality: Still laid back, but showing more and more when she feels strongly about something. (She's an AMAZING listening, direction follower)
Words she has mastered:Dog, Please, Dad-dee, Juice, Fish, baby, ball, EIEIO (Notice mom isn't on the list)
Bed time:7pmISH
Wake up time:7amISH
FAVORITES!
Toy: I bought her a doll stroller today... as of this moment that is her favorite toy!!! She's really into dolls these days!
Food: Banana's (Surprise,Surprise)She eats a lot of oatmeal, chicken, kix, and peas but she LOVES banana's!
Food she's not a fan of: Thanksgiving Dressing, Broccoli (although tonight she dipped it in ketchup) and Pasta
Friends: Her BFF's at the moment are Addie and Haddlie... can't forget Duke too!
Outfit(mom's choice): I love her in smock shirts and jeans/leggings. Recently we have been putting her hair in pigtails and side ponies.
Activity:
T.V. Show: Barney... and only barney. She has fallen in love at probably 9 months old and won't sit still for any other show!
Mom's Memory: When I whistled and she whistled back. She still occasionally will walk around the house just whistling! It melts my heart! Also, I know I already mentioned it, but she is crazy good at following directions: "Jessa, go get your shoes!" "Where's your cup?" "Go find your sleep sack." "Want to go outside?" "Should we go bye, bye?" "Please put your toys away." "Get your sleep sack out of the kitchen." "Go find something to play with, you're driving me crazy." "Where's Duke at?" "Go get my phone, let's call grandma." "Shut the door." "Put that back!" I use all of these phrases at least once if not 10 times during the day :)

Now onto Kid #2
Name: Jacen Terry Taube
How many weeks: 25 weeks 2 days
Biggest Craving: urgh, EVERYTHING. There's not really anything that doesn't sound amazing. Last week it was garlic bread though. That was funny.
Sleeping at night?: After I eat 2 tums, I'm good to go!
Weight Gain: 14 lbs.... ya, I don't want to talk about it! 10lbs last month, 4lbs this month. URGH!
Pains: Same exact pains in same exact places with Jessa and Jacen
Movement:Was feeling head on right side, legs on left. After last night I'm for sure he is head down, comfy as can be and have been feeling his hands all day in places that are really awkward to be blogging about.
Differences in pregnancies?: My two pregnancies couldn't have been more different from the start, now they are crazy similar... and I'm ready to be done.
Anything else: I hired a doula last week to ensure as natural and as healthy of a delivery as I can. I'm getting really excited!

Old MacDonald Had a Farm. EIEIO!

There have been a few things lately that I'm hoping I never forget. I want to write them down, keep them as memories and never forget them!

When I was pregnant with Jessa and decorating the gender neutral themed room, we decided on a cow theme. I loved the idea of lime green, black and white and cows just seemed to be appropriate. Anyway, scooping out BabiesRUS one day Nick and I find this cow that sings Old MacDonald. His mouth moved, and his ears flapped while he sang... Lets face it, I thought this was hands down the only thing the baby NEEDED! Come to find out it was like $40. I WAS NOT spending that on a stuffed animal. Fast Forward a month or two, back into Babies R US and THE COW IS ON SALE! Holy Cow! $15! I pick up this cow and just can't wait to play it for baby.

Jessa had little interest in the cow... until about a week ago. I had put it in a corner because she never really took to it much. Out of boredom I pressed the cows foot and he starts singing. You would have thought Barney had just walked into the room the way her eyes lite up! The song ended she grabbed the cow, hugged it and then instantly gave it to me so I could press the button and make him sing again. It only took two times... When he ended his song and she wanted to hear it AGAIN she knew exactly what to do! Press the music note on his foot. This was so cute the first time. Ok, maybe the second, third, forth and fifth time too. By the 10th time I was ready to put the dumb singing cow out to the visit the trash man.

So it's been a week. She still grabs the cow, hugs it tight and presses the foot repeatedly to make him sing and stop, start over and stop, start over again and stop. Once, the cow even got to sit on the potty and sing... it's just been annoying funny.

The part of this story I never want to forget is that she things I adore this cow as much as she does. She is big into sharing right now, and wants to give me whatever she is playing with... which happens to be the singing cow. She will grab the cow, make his start singing, come bring him to me with the proudest look on her face and walk away knowing she is being the best little girl she can be by sharing her toys. I on the other hand appreciate my sweet little girl learning to share, but can't bare to hear that cow sing that song one more time. Every time she brings it, I turn it off. THE INSTANT I turn off the cow she stops whatever she has moved into playing with turns around, runs back to me and turns the cow back on. This could go on for hours. It seriously melts my hearts. Her expressions, her excitement in her steps, everything about the way she is so concerned with the cow stops singing for me, she has to come fix it!

I am seriously in love with this little girls personality. (most days.)

So that's the cow story.

15 reasons for 15 months

Since I'm not writing letters to Jessa anymore but I still think it's important to document at least a few things about her life growing up, I've decided to celebrate her at 15 months old, I would list the 15 things I love most about her... in no particular order!

15. Her two huge circular cowlicks on her forehead.
14. Her extremely ticklishness
13. Her super sloppy open mouth kisses complete with the sound effect
12. Our morning cuddle time... the only cuddle time I get during the day.
11. Her ability to surprise me with how smart she is. (Today she twisted a lid onto a cup!)And her ability at 15 months to understand directions!!
10. Her love to clean, wipe, dust, sweep, mop, vacuum. She thinks anything that has to do with cleaning is great. Which leads me to a story***
9. How she knows when she has down something wrong.
8. Her strong yet very sweet personality.
7. The way she plays with a very simple toy for hours... a buckle can entertain her for days!
6. Her love for books, she has started "reading" them to herself. That makes my inside smile!
5. The way she NEVER cries for us to come get her after a nap or in the morning.
4. Her fascination for large crowds as long as we are near her. (If we leave her, say at the gym... it's a different story.)
3. Her sleeping habits have been ultra amazing since 2 months old. I hope they always stay this way.
2. How she LOVES using a fork at meal times and is so proud of herself when she eats.
1. Her smile. How can you not totally love all of her different smiles. She has a sweet smile, an ornery smile, a loving smile, a mysterious smile... I just love them all!


I've been so nervous about the new baby coming into the picture but as time goes on, I'm only getting more and more excited. I think she's going to have a huge adjustment at first but I think it will be the best thing that ever happened! I think she will enjoying being able to help me, and she has already learned how to fed all of her stuffed animals. She's going to be the best big sister ever! I get so excited thinking about it!!




***The other day we were in Target running errands and being pregnant obviously I have to pee alot. Normally we aren't out for that long and it not a problem but this day I just had to go. I rounded Jessa up inside the Family Restroom thinking it would easier for her NOT to touch anything since we would be in a bigger space than the handicap stall. Well I set her down and quickly thought of something I could do to occupy her for the 5 sec. I needed to pee. She used to love tearing up toilet paper so I ripped off a long strand and handed it to her. As she is standing there with a blank look on her face I quickly sit down only to notice she is crumbling up her paper... she then proceeds to wipe down every surface possible she can get to in the bathroom. The sink the back of the toilet and then... THE FLOOR! BARF!!! So, no matter where we go Jessa always find a place to clean, and I find it super funny!

14 months and 14 weeks!!!!

HOLY SMOKES, I'M PREGNANT AGAIN! ;)

Ahhh, that feels good to get it out. Even though this blog isn't listed on facebook, I once upon a time had it listed on there and to this day have no idea who stalks me. Therefore I waited and waited to finally make the big announcement!

I have stopped writing letters to Jessa. I made the cutest book with the 12+ letters I wrote to her every month of her 1st year. It turned out so great, and can not wait to give it to when she gets older. Anyway, I've decided it might be kind of fun periodicly to check in and just write a few random things down about Jessa and the new baby.

Jessa is 14 months old!
*We have pretty much discovered she is indeed asthmatic, and does really well with Alberterol when needed.
*She had her 1st dose of Antibiotics for a sinus infection and did really well with it.
*I'm extremely tired of feeling like I have a sick kid all the time. The guessing game of what to do and what not to do is getting really old... but isn't that what parenting is all about?
*She is still on formula, but has "upgraded" to Toddler Gentlease.
*I'm thinking about getting her allergy tested here in a few weeks.
*Enough about her being sick, SHE IS AN AWESOME KID!
*Her personality is coming out more and more, and while she is still showing major signs of being a lot of Nick, unfortunately more and more of my personality is starting to show with her. IE- she is SUPER strong willed and will most likely see a butt beating here and there in the future.
*I would like to say I think I'm a really good mom... just throwing that out there! We are trying really hard to use positive reinforcement, example- telling her she made a really good choice by not touching the t.v or by placing something down gently after she has thrown it down before. I feel like even though she has no idea what we are saying, it's really important that she hears the tone in our voice and we praise her when she does good things, and not just yell at her when she does bad... which does happen alot too ;)
*We recently bought a potty chair for her, and I was super excited to introduce her to it, until she shows me that she LOVES to play IN IT! Now we are waiting until the newness of the new "toy" goes away so she is not sicking her knee in the "potty hole" trying to climb on it... that's sick! haha
*She now knows how to: Wave HI, Wave bye along with saying "bye bye", give hi-5's, give kisses WITH sound :), play peek-a-boo by covering her own eyes and yelling "BA!" she is super fun!
*We are continuing to work on puzzles and just tonight she would study the piece I gave her and match it to the where it goes on the board, but still can't quite turn it to make it fit most of the time.
* Her hair is getting so long, and is finally starting to darken up. She refuses to keep anything in her hair, so I have to make sure she has at least SOME pink on her when we leave the house! :)
*She is fully walking, which started around her birthday, at thanksgiving she was walking "to" things, and by Christmas she was walking all over but still with her hands in the air. Now she is walking, walking on different levels, getting excited and attempting to run, moving from different surfaces with out falling, and realizing when there is a step to take. This whole walking deal has been by far my favorite thing to watch. I had no idea there were so many different "levels" to walking!
*I recently bought her a pillow, and while she hasn't quite grasp the concept of how to use it, I caught her on the video monitor last night waking up and crawling towards it! :)
*We have decided around May we are going to transfer her to her "big girl room" which holds a "big girl bed." We put the railing up the other day on our twin size bed. The bed looks HUGE, I can't imagine putting my little girl to sleep in such a huge bed!
*As cheesy as it sounds, my love for this kid grows daily. She is unexceptionably special to me!!

Baby 2.0 is 14 weeks in the making!
I was shocked to find out I was pregnant with Jessa, mainly because she was a crazy surprise! Even though we knew there was GREAT CHANCE we could become pregnant in Cancun, I also knew in the back of my mind I had JUST gone off birth control AND who gets pregnant on their first try anyway! BUT SURPRISE AGAIN!

*We found out on Jessa's 1st Birthday of baby 2.0 in the making! What a fun birthday gift to a child that has no idea what's going on!
*I never in a million years thought we would have babies 21 months apart! My brother and I are 3 years and Nick and his siblings are 4 and 7 years!
*My pregnancy is going awesome, all except for the actual being pregnant part that limits you from doing things like taking ALOT of medications when you have been sick for a month and just want to get better!
*This pregnancy is like night and day compared with Jessa. All except for the cereal part!!!
*I've only been sick MAYBE once a day if that. Compared to ALL DAY EVERY DAY for 18 weeks!
*I've had crazy vivid dreams, to the point where I'm not sleeping good at all!
*I've been craving olives and pickles, definitely more salty than sweet this go around.
*Certain foods really gross me out to the point I need to leave the room... specifically turkey meatballs which is ironic because that was my FAVORITE meal before baby 2.0 came along!
*I don't have to pee every 5 mins, and in fact I've made it almost the entire 1st tri without even waking up in the middle of the night to go! WHOA!
*I haven't gained a pound, however I"m showing like crazY!
*The first few weeks after I found out I was pregnant, I was feeling really weird things going on in my belly. It was almost as if pressed a button to turn on pregnancy mode and everything just started shifting around.
*This baby's heart rate is SKY HIGH! Dr. says "sounds like a girl." We'll see if she's right!
*I of course am hoping for a boy, just to balance things out. With that said, I wouldn't be disappointed to play dress up again with another girl! :)
*I'm excited for this pregnancy, scared out of my mind, and WOW it's going REALLY FAST!