Hi!
Look here I am, alive after what seems like 6 years, but really it's only been 6 months. So much has happened, kids are growing, sweet moments are being shared... and I'm not documenting a thing. I loose!
I've been feeling like I owe Jacen a letter, here it goes!
Baby Boy,
Please forgive me as the lack of letters from your first year are not in the same number as your sisters. Being the second child has many hardships, lack of documentation on anything you do is one of them. Nevertheless, I love you so much!
I had many friends tell me that my love for a "boy" would be so much different than my love for a "girl" aka, your sister Jessa. I never believe them, and after the first three months of watching you cry out, quite possibly 24 hours a day, I wondered if this is what they meant... maybe I wasn't going to love you as much? HA! Little did I know we turned a corner and here you are at almost 7 months old and I just can't get enough of you! I love showing you off, I love dressing you up, I love making you smile, making you giggle, watching you coo, watching you roll, and sit up and stand and... yes start to crawl. I love kissing your head, your arms, your feet, your fingers and toes and sometimes even your lips too. (go ahead, "ewwww yuck!") I love every ounce of you! I love that God has made you such a boy that when I change your diaper you look at me with these goofy eyes and laugh this deep belly laugh as I clean you. I love watching you play, watching you sleep, watching you eat. You are notorious for grabbing a hold of my shirt, my hair, my necklace trying to get closer and closer to me. Jacen, we have developed this bond that I never want to rid of. I have this love for you that I"m not sure i'll ever be able to explain. I love you and Jessa both so much, but both very differently. I find my self gazing into your eyes wondering what your future will look like, what it will be like to walk you down the aisle as you meet your bride. Will I have done a good job raising you, teaching you, making sure you are the best man you can be. What will it be like watching you become a man, a father? I promise you, I will teach you everything I know about women that's important, and I will teach you how to love, respect and support a family of your own. You, someday, someday far far away, will be a man.
Currently at almost 7 months old:
*You have been sitting up unassisted for almost 2 whole months.
*You have been getting in the crawling position and rocking for a solid month now.
*You haven't mastered crawling by any means, but you do a darn good backwards scoot!
*I find you in a lot of places backed into a corner, it's super cute!
*Your favorite thing to do is jump... you love love love the doorway jumper.
*You get scared easily, and at first sight of a dog screamed your head off.
*Now dogs make you laugh
*You LOVE LOVE LOVE food!
* We started you on solids a little before your 5th month birthday. I knew I was in trouble the day I gave you two "MUM MUMs" and you screamed and screamed and screamed when you picked up the packaging realizing there was no more.
*You are in complete awe of your sister. You watch her every move. You like to do what she is doing, and if you can't you study her while she's doing it.
*You love the t.v, and yes, you even love Barney too!
*You have been sick a lot and left us believing you have a diary allergy too, but we still are not for sure of that.
*You smile A LOT! and are really fun to play dress up with!
*Blue really isn't your color, but you look pretty stunning in Orange. I"m on the search for all really cute boy outfits in Orange!
*I miss you when you are sleeping, and have been sleeping through the night consistently for about a month now. We had a little hiccup during the holidays with traveling and sickness and such... but we are back to a solid bedtime of 6 or 6:30 and a wake up time around 12 hours later. THANK YOU FOR THIS!
*You HATE to be alone, when I walk out of the room and leave you alone you cry... hard... with real tears! Don't you know I'm just around the corner?
*If I would let you, I think you would be content with just sitting in my lap for the whole day. How long will it be like this for? Will you love me for forever?
My world has completely changed since you entered it! It was a rough first few months. The adjustment to having two kids was less than thrilling, and you were so unhappy for the first few months too! But we made it through, and I can't picture my life with out you in it. I hope for you, that you and Jessa remain great friends and grow up to be extremely close. I do not regret our decision to have you two so close together at all. It's been such a blessing.
I'm so excited to see what the next few months bring us! And of course to get to snuggle you some more :)
I love you so so so much!
Love, Mommy!
